Today is my 23rd birthday, and birthdays always cause me to reflect on what has happened over the course of the year.
I realised that this time in 2016, I was only just on the cusp of my writing journey. I had only recently quite full-time work and I was apprehensive yet excited for the future. I made a conscious decision to actually chase my dreams, and I realise now it was the bravest thing I have ever done. The first step is always the hardest, right?
The last year has been full of breathtaking highs. I cannot believe I actually published my first book at 22. I’m young, and hopeful, and in some ways, inexperienced, but I learn something new every day and I don’t ever wish to lose the flutter of butterflies in my stomach every time I think of what my future holds.
Chasing my dreams has not been without its challenges. I’ve had to shed friendships, negative ways of thinking and certainly sacrifice old patterns. It was fightening at first. I realised I was no longer going to be the smalltown country girl with the white-picket fence, but it was beyond empowering to remember this was never who I truly was anyway.
Instead I have discovered and actively pursued my deepest desires, and found new, uplifting friendships that I am grateful for every single day. Sometimes, I forget I am still so young and then experience self-doubt, but that is when I think of Veronica Roth. She was only 23 when her first book was published, with an international following and a movie adaption soon after. If she, along with a myriad of other authors can do it, there’s no reason why I can’t too.
So, with that in mind, by my 24th birthday, I would like the following things:
- A wonderful, supportive and amazing literary agent.
- A publishing deal in the U.S.
- A prospective film deal.
- A circle of incredibly talented writing friends and
- To read and learn more about my art form.
It is my belief that if you want something badly enough, there is no way you can fail. Of course it will take time, and of course there will be blocks, but the right people and opportunities that help you get there will cross your path when you are supposed to receive them.
If I am to be successful, I have to be open and willing to change. My first book, Enchantment, will no doubt be edited when I someday get a book deal. It is for this reason I have been revisiting it, smiling in some places and frowning in others, trying to find places where it can expand, improve and grow. I need it to be the very best it can be if I am to find a literary agent that will take it wholeheartedly in her stride. I can’t wait for that day to come.
So, Happy 23rd Birthday to me, and may 2017 be my year of successes.
– B x